The last time I wrote in Lj was a year ago. Since then Christina and I broke up and we're moving to different place in the city. Well she's already at hers, I'm still at 23rd and locust. I'm pretty bummed that we're not together any more. I still love that girl w/ all of my heart but things dont always work out I guess.

I interned at Hey Day Ent(they book shows at the khyber/pontiac/barbary/north star bar) booking shows and doing other "intern" things. Recently I got a job through them as "head of production" or "promoter rep." Which means I go to shows and make sure they run smoothly. I still work at Trader Joes in the city so my plate is pretty full.

The last week has been really lonely, I've been busy w/ work and havent had a lot of time to hang out. Everything in my life is changing.....job/relationship/place to live. I'm just really confused in my life, I cant believe the last couple months actually happened.

Things aren't all bad....just different, I really have to get used to whats going and try to keep it together. As far as girls, I dont know really what to do. I dont want a relationship or to date anyone at all. I guess I just need some one night stands here and there. Not to mention I totally forgot how to talk to girls(I LOST MY GAME). Its really hard to not be w/ someone you;re in love w/.....really hard. Today at work I had to head over to the bathroom and collect myself. I got a little upset bc I havent heard from Christina in a little bit and I miss her so much and I refuse to call her.

On the up side I got our kitty when we broke up..her name is pepper and she helps me get through the day. I wish I was home more to hang out w/ her but being home hurts....theres a lot of memories in this apartment.

I hate being alone...its the worst thing in my life. My mind dosnet let me forget her and all my other stresses. I just want to be a good guy a happy guy but I'm not right now.

I hope things turn out ok....

I cant help wanting to have someone....love someone..have them close and make it my lifes purpose to make them happy.I know I'm young but thats me, I love the idea of marrage and kids. But after this relationship I doubt I'll be w/ anyone for a long time.

Sincerley,
Louis

christina and i found a apartment on 23rd and locust....its a studio and in a "posh" neighborhood...

i've been working at trader joes in philly for the last 2 weeks....i like it

i just dropped a huge turd and dragged christina's sister(kim) in the bathroom to see it....she started dry heaving

i got a hair cut and i'm really hott...sorry ladies...

Hey all you LJ fucks!!!!!!

Well its been a Very long time since I wrote on here....
Heres the fuckin run on me, Louis Fuckin Mansfield and why i'm better than almost everyone!!!


(LOVE)
My time nowadays are spent w/ the lovely Christina Overbagh. This beautiful young lady has been my girlfriend for the last 9 months. She goes to school at Moore College of Art and Design(all girls school) in Philly. Needless to say i'm there all the time. We're working on moving in together in the city, like finding jobs there and a little pad to make our sweet love in.

She's my girl, and i love her very much.

(TATTOOS)
I got a snake tearing a guy's head off....it symbolizes.......NOTHING
ppl need to stop being so fuckin sentimental....and just get Brutal shit on there body!

(WORK)
I still load the trucks for UPS, I also found another job at the The UPS Store near my house. I worked there for about 7 months and up until today i dont work there anymore. Sucks for them bc i have some "dirt" on how they run things in the store and I notified UPS (via my loading job) about them. I also just got a job at GERHARDS bakery and have a interview at TRADER JOES (in philly) on fri. so things are ok. Working 2 jobs keeps me busy....and i stay out of trouble.

(MUSIC)
I stopped doing the whole helping putting on shows thing and band thing. Its kinda a pain in the ass and not really what i want to do w/ my time. I've been playing w/ my friend Matt Schetter(MEMIOR r.i.p.) and we've been putting together a band called...

********THE CANCER PATIENT**********

w/ Matt and myself on guitars, J. Goldberg(BAD LUCK 13) on vocals and a drum machine. I've had some lets say annoying expierences w/ drummers and i think this is the way to go. This is the first time i wanted to start a band since THE CAINE MUTINY(pffffft) and i think the best way to go about it is to just have fun and not take it to serisouly.

Me and Matt are also working on a zine-ish type site...its gonna be sick..

(FRIENDS)
I've found out who my REAL friends are...they know who they are...nuff' zed!


(FAMILY)
Fuck the family!

(JOHNNY LAW)

My probation is up in May. FUCK THE LUMBERTON POLICE DEPT. and not to mention FUCK THE PHILADELPHIA PARKING VIOLATIONS BEAREAU

I'm very happy to be the "kid who fell in love"
Theres nothing more important to me than her
Everything else in life

DOSENT MATTER!!!!!!!!



I wish ALL of you fucks a good life and good health....i hope everyone is leading a good life...







If theres anyone out there wanting to "re-kindle a long lost friendship" w/ myself, please feel free to do contact me.. (burnbabybird).... okcontacts@hotmail.com


ES35N ...no hard feelings...

OKCOMEONKIDS MUSIC GROUP PRESENTS:

Friday, August 22
at First Unitarian Church (22nd & Chestnut Streets | Philadelphia, PA)
Doors Open at 7:00 Admission is $7 ALL AGES / NO DRINKING
THE RED CHORD > Massachusetts / Robotic Empire
KALIBAS > New York / Relapse & Willowtip Records
BURIED INSIDE > Ottawa, Ontario / Cyclop Records
SEARCHING FOR CHIN > Windsor, Ontario
PASSION > Philadelphia / Featuring ex members of Always the Victim
More Information: ALOLbooking@aol.com
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Friday, August 29
at QUENCH (River of Life Worship Center | 1110 Cornell Ave | Cherry Hill, NJ)
Doors Open at 7:00 Admission is $7 ALL AGES / NO DRINKING
KILL VERONA > Philadelphia / Livewire Records
A TRUNK FULL OF DEAD BODIES > Pennsylvania / Dressed to Kill Records
THE PROGRESS > New Jersey
THE MIND SHAFT GAP > New Jersey / Featuring ex members of The June Spirit
STICK FIGURE SUICIDE > Philadelphia
More Information: ALOLbooking@aol.com
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NINE WILL DIE - RECORD RELEASE SHOW!!
Friday, September 26
at QUENCH (River of Life Worship Center | 1110 Cornell Ave | Cherry Hill, NJ)
Doors Open at 7:00 Admission is $7 ALL AGES / NO DRINKING
NINE WILL DIE > Philadelphia / Arrant Recordings
BODIES IN THE GEARS OF THE APPARATUS > New Jersey / Forsaken Records
FROM A SECOND STORY WINDOW > Pennsylvania / Black Market Activities
COMA ETERNAL > Wisconsin / Featuring ex members of End This Day
THE SUICIDE KISS > New Jersey / Featuring members of Memoir
More Information: ALOLbooking@aol.com
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Saturday, October 4
at QUENCH (River of Life Worship Center | 1110 Cornell Ave | Cherry Hill, NJ)
Doors Open at 7:00 Admission is $7 ALL AGES / NO DRINKING
DAYS AWAY > Pennsylvania
ZOLOF THE ROCK AND ROLL DSETROYER > Pennsylvania / Eyeball Records
PARK > Illinios / Lobster Records
COPELAND > Florida / The Militia Group
THE COLLAPSE > Philadelphia / Infernal Racket records
More Information: ALOLbooking@aol.com
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Saturday, October 25
at QUENCH (River of Life Worship Center | 1110 Cornell Ave | Cherry Hill, NJ)
Doors Open at 7:00 Admission is $7 ALL AGES / NO DRINKING
BLACK CROSS > Kentucky / Equal Vision Records
THE FUNERAL > New York / Endwell Records
three more bands to be announced
More Information: ALOLbooking@aol.com
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OKCOMEONKIDS MUSIC GROUP PRESENTS

Monday, July 28 / at River Of Life/ Cherry Hill, New Jersey (see address below)

Doors Open at 7:00 P.M. / Admission is $8

A LIFE ONCE LOST - New Jersey Record Release SHOW!! Deathwish Inc

BETWEEN THE BURIED AND ME - MCA / Victory Records

PREMONITIONS OF WAR - MCA / Victory Records

THE KILLING - Record Release SHOW!! ex members of Blue Skies Fade

MEMOIR - New Jersey Tech Metal

10:45 - 10:15 - A LIFE ONCE LOST / 10:00 - 9:30 - BETWEN THE BURIED AND ME / 9:15 - 8:50 - PREMONITIONS OF WAR / 8:35 - 8:10 - THE KILLING / 7:55 - 7:30 - MEMOIR / 7:30 - 7:00 - DOORS / 7:00 - 5:00 - LOAD IN



O K C O M E O N K I D S M U S I C G R O U P

Booking info: ALOLbooking@aol.com

River of Life and O K C O M E O N K I D S M U S I C G R O U P promotes a drug free/alcohol free environment.

1110 Cornell Ave.
08002 Cherry Hill, NJ
(Right off of rt. 70 behind TOP DOG. Very close to Philadelphia)

heather...dont ever think you can talk shit about me...

remember...i have way more shit on you...than you do me...and i', just itching to tell and show all...keep that in mind the next time you decide to open your fucking mouth!!!!!!!

so i saw this girl i didnt want to see this week....TWICE.....

...honestly i thought i'd be pissed off...and spit in this girls face...
but then i realized how fucking fat and ugly she got when she was at school...hahaha...its like DAMN GIRL, YOU GOT HIT W/ THE UGLY STICK...WHILE EATING TOO MANY PIZZA'S.....

i was honestly embarrased that i actually even remotely attracted to this girl...hahaha....if there was ever closure that would be it...the fat rolls hanging over the sides of her white pants...(dude..white pants..what are you thinking)....hahaha....what a fuckin pig...hahaha....you can barely see her nose anymore bc cheeks are too fat...her arms look like a slabs of beef...even though she got all disgusting...i bet her sister;s still hot..wow...imagine your younger sister being so much more fucking hott then you are...damn...thats enough to make you wanna grab a pair a scissors and hacking away at your wrists....and she's crazier than her mom so she'll prolly do it!

oh yeah...by the way...hottiemchothot ..take me off your fucking friends list..what are you fucking stupid?

OKCOMEONKIDS MUSIC GROUP PRESENTS

Monday, July 28 / at River Of Life/ Cherry Hill, New Jersey (see address below)

Doors Open at 7:00 P.M. / Admission is $8

A LIFE ONCE LOST - New Jersey Record Release SHOW!! Deathwish Inc

BETWEEN THE BURIED AND ME - MCA / Victory Records

PREMONITIONS OF WAR - MCA / Victory Records

THE KILLING - Record Release SHOW!! ex members of Blue Skies Fade

MEMOIR - New Jersey Tech Metal

10:45 - 10:15 - A LIFE ONCE LOST / 10:00 - 9:30 - BETWEN THE BURIED AND ME / 9:15 - 8:50 - PREMONITIONS OF WAR / 8:35 - 8:10 - THE KILLING / 7:55 - 7:30 - MEMOIR / 7:30 - 7:00 - DOORS / 7:00 - 5:00 - LOAD IN



O K C O M E O N K I D S M U S I C G R O U P

Booking info: ALOLbooking@aol.com

River of Life and O K C O M E O N K I D S M U S I C G R O U P promotes a drug free/alcohol free environment.

1110 Cornell Ave.
08002 Cherry Hill, NJ
(Right off of rt. 70 behind TOP DOG. Very close to Philadelphia)

THIS IS DEF. WORTH READING...

so today i met up w/ kevin, joe, chuck and doug...in pa to go to the A LIFE ONCE LOST show...in philly...we got 8...40's along the way...

we all got really drunk...got in for free....moshed it up...saw a lot of ppl that i dont normally get to see...it was fuckin sick...a really good time...

so on the way back...kev was driving...was back to joe's house...well we were on 95 going 106mph and we get pulled over..haha...we were all drinking so we all smelled like alcohol.....and i was stressed bc i'm on probation...

the cops made us sit in the car for an hour...gave everyone BUT me breathalizer tests....(they all failed)....and everyone BUT ME got underage drinking tickets....and kev got a speeding ticket and a reclus(sp) driving ticket...(plus the underage drinking ticket)...

so everyone got fucked...BUT me.....i didnt get shit...hahah AWESOME...theres sooooooo many funny details to this story but its 3:16am and i'm really tired...so if you wanna hear the funny shit...i guess your just gonna have to hang out w/ me to find out....

so inclosing...

i saw a free(sick) show...

got drunk...

saw a lot of friends..

got pulled over...

and was the ONLY one NOT to get in trouble...

tonight...was indeed a BRUTAL night!!!!!!!!!!

the last couple days have been good...

thurs i hung out w/ tori and had a wonderful time....(i like tori)

fri after work i went to practice....then after we practiced....we all went to a party....and i got real fucking drunk....

sat....we recorded w/ chris....it was awesome...i have sooo many stories...its really cool hangin out w/ someone you admire....i did acouple bass parts...and did some backing vocals.....(after the acouple takes i started spitting up blood...)...

THE BACKING VOCALS....(i had 4 parts)

#1.....PLASTIC HEARRRRRRRRRRRRT!(lilly says plastic face...then right after i say plastic heart...my idea...hah)

#2.....WAAAAAAAATCH!...(me and lilly scream in unison)

#3.....SMELL MY.......INSIDES!....(its during the break down...i scream it twice...i decided to do it as joke bc i was farting A LOT that day....and after one of the times i farted i said "smell my insides"...and was like "whoa...i think i'm gonna say that"...everyone else thought it was funny)

#4.....WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOORE!(that word coming out of my mouth recorded in a song has been a long time coming...its directed towards some stupid cunt that has me on her LJ and isnt on mine...to be more specific...hottiemcrottencrotch)

chris burned me the new DEFTONES...word...

he also played us the demo for the NEW DILLINGER ESCAPE PLAN RECORD(an idiots guide to jesus:hunting and scathing)!.....they're recording...its sick..the shit he can play on drums is amazing)

and then he played us the NEW ALL ELSE FAILED RECORD.....the angriest record i've even heard...BRUTAL!...he played drums and recorded it...he did a good job!


i have a unmastered version if the song...so if you hang out w/ me...and want to hear it....let me know...

tomorrow is my nephews birthday party...so....yeah....

so if you didnt already know...a month ago i got arrested for posession..(pot)...a cop pulled me over and found a roach on the passenger side floor of my car(..i didnt know it was there...no really my "friend" chris left it in the car)....the last month was kinda rough...the family took it hard...

but today was court....i got $930 in fines...(LAME.....)...and a year probation....i already paid $300...and tomorrow i should be giving them $200....i'm trying to get it all paid off...and put this shit behind me....

in the past month ...i;ve hung out w/ acouple really cool girls...that i'm glad i have the pleasure of knowing...no one serious..but..we'll see whats up...

the band is going well...we're still writing...and we're gonna record bass and vocals on one of our songs...w/ chris pennie this weekend....i'll post the mp3's when they're up...

i like my job...but upon recent events....i'm gonna have to get a full time job that pays well....(so if anyone knows anything...or could help me out....HOOK IT UP PLAYA)...seriously!!!!!!!

my car (95 cavalier) hit the 100,000 mark the other day...(lame)...thats just another thing i'm gonna have to money in...

pot is at a all time low....and it will be lowered even more...drinking is gaining momentum....and taking over...and being sober isnt that bad anymore....

thats it...i prolly wont post for awhile...so send your love....post or IM me...(BURNbabyBIRD)...

PEACE.....

money is tight...but i still need to go out and have fun...so if you have my #...feel free to call...

i've learned a few things here and there...and i think its important to look back at the things you've done and make changes so certain situations dont accure again....

i've learned its better to hook up w/ someone your not interested in having anyother kind of relationship than physical...than it is to hook up w/ some you acutually care about and want to know beyond the physical relationship(this is all ofcourse if your not planning on acuatlly being in a commited relationship w/ this person)....i'd rather know someone that i'm fond of for a long period of time...rather than ruin it w/ hooking up....

i've learned that some vices arent worth the trouble...dosent matter how much i enjoy a particular substance...if it means that i could ruin anything even remotely good i have going...then its not worth it

i've learned...that ppl have there own personal agenda (even me)....and only to really trust the ppl i know and love...

i've learned that life isnt easy....its a lot of hard work....and that i need to get my shit together...and get on my way...and get started...

i;ve also learned...to avoid stress as much as possible...like avoiding arguments(like at work.... w/ friends....w/ the parents)....its not worth it....i hate driving down the street thinking about something that upsets me...or losing sleep over something that happened to me...

i think its time to grow up a little bit...we'll see how that goes...

this is my band.....THE CAINE MUTINY
http://www.livejournal.com/users/adreamlessmind

from left to right
louis(guitar), eric(drums),jon(bass),andrew(guitar),lilly(vocals)


(it looks like i'm staring at eric's crotch)

dialogue of the day:
(me and mike were watching some show on mtv about this)

louis: DUDE!....girls SHOULD carry condoms...its not like i do....and they can just put them in their purse!

mike: you used to carry condoms....

louis: yeah well....i used to get laid!

-louis and mike...(drunk)

sensative rapper quote of the day:

"if i wrote you a love letter...would you write me back"

-50 cent...(i feel ya bro...i feel you!)

..............LADIES..........
if you ever needed to feel better about yourself....click here (its catherine zeta jones)
http://www.rare-nude-celebrities.com/week11/cjones.jpg

last night i drowned my promblems away in beer....it felt good...nothing bad to think about...no problems...no worries....just me...and the spinning room....oh...and the toilet bowl...but nevertheless....everything just went away...it was like i was swimming in a carbonated golden brown pool w/ a thin layer of foam on the surface!!!

i've traded one vice for another...alcoholism here i come....

I and Webster: dude
I and Webster: im gunna be a dad
I and Webster: someday
BURNbabyBIRD: no your not
BURNbabyBIRD: dude...dont fuck w/ me....if wonton having your love child
I and Webster: dude she wishs

if its any consolation...you can have my love child anyday

i got a lawyer....jim bodnar of medford nj...you fuck w/ me...you fuck w/ him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

thats right officer DICKinsin....and dectective diloretto....you fucked w/ the wrong dude!

(its nice to know that jim bodnar went to law school to get kids like me off of minor drug charges!!!!!)

i have a lot of things that are really bothering me...

i took a walk around my neighborhood...just walked around....it kinda sucks...i cant bare to be alone w/ so many things on my mind...so i have to leave the house...

i just want everything bad to go away...i want everything to be cool...i want to know that in a month....i'll be alright

i'm really stressing out.....so much to think about....i'm seriously...just sitting here ...waiting...for everything to get so much worse...i know its gonna happen..i'm going to wake up...one day...and everything...will just crumble...i just need to be around someone who takes my mind off of everything...instead of being around ppl who make me think about this shit even more...i wish time would stand still...so i won't have to worry..

i look at my 3 year old nephew...how innocent he is...and i wish i could go back to that...or at least remember what it was like...

it's really hard for me to trust ppl...i'm really trying though...i feel like shit...



(its posts like this that are the reason that i stop posting in the first place)

its hard to believe that one roach can cause so much trouble! i havent slept in 4 days ...i have to spend a lot of money ....burden my parents..feel like a fucking scum bag....and so much more....bc of one roach...dosent seem worth it...does it?....am i really that much of a fuck up?...its not like i rape 10 yr. olds or anything...its a fucking roach....shit....get over it!...(note to self: ALWAYS USE YOUR TURN SIGNAL!!!!!)


the only good roach....is a dead roach!